how i wish life was easier. how i wish life was simpler. how i wish life was meaningful. how i wish life was my own instead of someone else's.

so many days i waste, so many happy times i should have gotten to replace that bad ones. i just look myself in the mirror and ask what did i do wrong? what did i do to deserve this life i have right now. bouncing on and off this 'girl' when i can be just free. live life and enjoy the sweet smell of freedom and the morning mist.

i still dont know why. even though i ask myself that question every day. i guess im a sucker for her. everything she does just draws me closer and closer to her. it makes me want to indulge in such beauty and self confidence. sigh ... and yet again, he falls for her.

rick.